I am writing down something very deep and personnel right now. The thoughts that are going through my head have been at the very core of all my thoughts since I finished my 1st year in college.
Basically it’s about what I want to do after college. And at the surface this question doesn’t bother anyone much, cause it’s a very normal routine question. A question, about which, people think even before entering college. A question, the answer to which dictates the very college they go to.
But in my case, it’s different. Or rather it’s complicated. I am torn down between two dreams. Two very beautiful dreams. One, where I want to set up my own business house and compete with the likes of Boeing.
And the other, which wants me to take a job in foreign lands and sail unknown waters. I don’t know if both these dreams sound a little too fanciful, but it is how I perceive them. Help is always welcome.
And do you know what the main problem is? It is that I have so many choices. Having so many choices can be a real pain sometimes. It would have been better had their only been one path that I could take. Would have made things so much easier. But…even in such a situation I would have wanted choices. I am like the person who wants as many doors open as possible and then jump into one at the last-minute.
The fact that I am from a business household gives me the opportunity to get into the family business, or start my own, which is something I truly want. But the lure of unseen lands beckons me too. I feel if I get into business I won’t get to see the world as much as I like too. I would be totally engrossed forever in shaping it as I want. And on the other hand a job may offer all that, but I would still be working for someone else, earning for someone else. Do u see the dilemma..??
And then there is the choice between M.BA and M.S./M.Tech even if I want to do a job. While the later fulfills my Aero-dreams, the former is probably better suited for me to take a middle path. But I have always found this concept of doing M.BA after B.Tech, a very stupid prospect. But it could well be my calling. The problem is I love Aero too, and I won’t be able to work in the technical field then. Tricky, isn’t it ?
The IAS factor, I haven’t even mentioned yet. Though it is something I am least inclined towards, it still continues to be what my parents think is the best option for me. I tend to disagree, strongly.
Maybe it’s too much worrying for now. Maybe I am behaving a lot like NA, which doesn’t really suit me 😀 😛 . Maybe I should just take the plunge anywhere and see what happens. Or maybe I should wait right now, and let the coming college years help me decide. At present I feel like a loose arrow…or a loose cannon if u may. I have no aim at this point, just dreams. And I don’t know what to do with them. Am confused, totally confused.